Go away.

 Here I am, sitting in the corner of a cafe with one of their expensive spaghetti and an ice milk because I don't give a damn about the price. I just want to entertain my self so I don't sulk too much.

Yes, I do sulk. I started to envy anything and everything. Blame my friggin hormones, people.

And I'll just sit here, being all pretty just this once. And you all are not allowed to fucking judge me. Am I clear?

Because i just had bad days recently and there are moments where I feel small and unworthy, when all the things I've done are bloody pointless. Oh don't give me that look. I don't need your concern about starving children in China and such. I'm here ranting as much as I like because I need space where I can put off my goddamn smile and stop pretending to be happy. It may appear that my life's beautiful and nothing hurts but no, seriously. My life isn't easy.

I wish I were you, Thea.

That is an example of a stupid thought. I mean, it's not as beautiful as it may seems. If I were you, I would never wish that.

Anyway, it's raining (again). It's raining everyday in my town nowadays *sigh*.